I hate resolutions.

I hate goals too. The word "goal" implies that I may accomplish it, and that'd be nice and all, but I probably won't and it'll be all good anyway. And "resolution" makes me think of "resolved", which makes me think of the debate definition of "resolved", which is even less conclusive than a "goal".

So I'm making DEFINITES. Take that, connotations.

1) Final at state.
2) Qualify for nationals.
3) Get a 5 on all my AP exams.

Those are the easy ones. Now for the more complex:
1) Stop procrastinating so much. Even as I make this list, I am procrastinating on scholarship essays. It's a habit that I've become quite fond of over the past semester and one that has come back to bite me in the ass multiple times. Still, I can't quite seem to shake it, no matter how much sleep I lose. So, we shall fix this. Procrastination is not inherently evil, but my brand sure feels like it.
2) Write again. No, I've never stopped writing (obviously). But I have sort of stopped writing creatively. It used to be a coping mechanism, and I suppose it still is, though I reserve it for the times when I need something big and I need something now. A lack of time probably plays into this; it's much easier to blast a 3-minute song to ease frustration than it is to write a 5 page story. But I've never been a fan of the easy way out. I think #1 will help with this; what I need the most in the world is more time.
3) Get through my French tapes. This means actually learning what is on them, not having them on in the background while multitasking on five other projects. I've tried to do this several times, but the endeavor has always died out after a few weeks. This seems like a good summer project, though as the school year winds down (only two APs fourth semester), I might be able to get a head start.
4) Friends. I am an extremely antisocial person. Not to the point where I have antisocial personality disorder (because I did a research project on that for psych and now know far too much about it), but to the point where I'll hang up on people who call me or make see-through excuses to get out of social obligations. And yet I still expect friends to be there for me when I need them. Not fair, Anna, not fair. So...I'm going to answer the phone, even though I hate it. I'm going to spend time with the people who mean the most to me, because after the summer, I don't know when I'll see many of them again. I have some wonderful friends, and I don't want to lose them out of laziness or introvertedness (a word which I may have made up).
5) Spend less time on the computer. If you think you can't get addicted, think again. There's just so much to do, to read, to watch...but I digress, and I'm making excuses. If I force myself to spend less time on the computer, I am concurrently forcing myself to practice, to maybe read more than 50% of the articles I file, to spend time with my family (ugh)...in short, I am forcing myself to be more well-rounded. And that's a good thing to be.
6) Become more physically fit. I think I say this every year, and I think I fail each time. But since it's a DEFINITE, well, there ya go.

And since there's no time like the present...scholarship essays garnered from extremely uncreative prompts, anyone?