I do not mean to this into a sorority ranting venue

(as I turned it into a "Dear Roommate" blog last year). If you want to read non-rant-y, awesome Berlin stuff, you know where to find it.

I was having a mutual venting session with Chris last night, and I said something that surprised me at first, but I think it summed up the problem quite well:

"When you see something that was the best part of your freshman year become the worst part of your sophomore year, it's frustrating, you know?"

When you see the family that accepted you when you didn't know where else to go morph into an entity that can't wait to shove you out the front door, it's psychologically confusing and also, in my mind, immensely insulting, because you've poured your heart and soul into this organization and now it's telling you that that doesn't matter, that it wants to change its identity and you don't fit anymore.

You see the organization flailing, desperately trying to grow and not understanding why it isn't, so it tries the same strategies over and over and falls short again and again, and you know you bring a different approach--you can't say if it's better or worse yet because you haven't been given the opportunity to try it, but you'd daresay that it's better--but it's dismissed as foolhardy. And it's frustrating.

Alumnae who read this: I'll keep you posted on how elections proceed. Alpha love and, more importantly, all of mine.