25 July 2010

I am a not a chameleon.

I cried a lot fall term. It was predictable, the crying. As a rule, I don't enjoy change, yet I had forcibly ripped myself out of my comfort zone and thrust myself into a new environment whose rules and structure I didn't fully understand. I had left behind the familiarity of old places and faces and traded it in for people who seemed to latch onto everyone except me.

Eventually it got better. I repeated my high school experience verbatim: I had a horrible first half of the year, found wonderful friends in the second half, and watched them graduate. But by then I had learned to navigate the system. I knew how to stop the crying.

(I still cry, but for other reasons.)

1 comment:

bewaretheides said...

I spent my whole Freshman year crying*.



* Because I could not handle how people socialized only with booze/it made me really uncomfortable.